Worry to Wonder

I want to begin to change worry to wonder
I worry alot about things all the time
Life, my age and my body, the fact that I'm lazy
I don't make new friends, my relationships languish
I start and I stop ... I think I will never become
What I can be before it's too late

So I think I will start to just wonder a bit
And imagine that maybe I'll go to the window
And help will just come to me right through the window
I'll feel that the sun is beginning to warm my body
Relaxing and stretching my heart seems to open

The moon looks at me with a smile and he says
There are people to meet you -- they like you
They're waiting -- so don't be afraid

My nervousness goes as I look at the trees
They're all standing together but separate
They say: Be like us ... we're all strong
And we're different you can be that way too.

And the stars are all shining I hear what they're saying
It took us a while for our shining to reach you
And your's may take time to reach others as well
Give it time.

Now I know as I write this I need to do more
Than just write stuff and wonder ... it's just not enough
But what also I'm thinking is that I'm so happy
I wrote this small poem ... I'm alive and I'm dreaming and I'm writing
I've moved from my bed to my chair
And the next steps' just getting myself out the door

Now if I'm going to meet people I'll have to find clothes
That suite me, are cheap and are colorful too
I'll visit my sister ... I've got that arranged
And I'll spend some time listening and getting to know her
I'll get back to taking my dogs out for visits
It's what I believe in ... It makes us all happy

But the hardest darn thing ... is to get out of bed
It's silly but true ... It's the hardest to do
And I know in my heart that nothing will change
If I don't make an effort to get out of bed

And if I have trouble (I probably will)
I'll just go to the window and ask my new friends
For some strength and some patience and wisdom to guide me
And to be with me always ... I know that they will.

~ Lorna J Green( November 2006)

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Just Bring It To Us

If you have some stuff that you can't figure out
And you don' know what to do,
Just grab a bag
and throw the stuff in it
And bring it ... just bring it to us.

We'll take the stuff, and sort it all out,
Some calls will be made,
Some texts will be sent,
Whole family's will come to your rescue ... you'll see.

But you say to yourself
They don't know enough, that's not what they do,
Don't deserve help
I haven't worked hard,
I've left it too late, I'm probably selfish, dishonest, corrupt ... they'll see me.
I just better stick with myself, and do it, just do it alone.

But we can't!
We're all in a ship being tossed around,
And nobody know's what will happen next.
So don't drop your anchor,
There's nothing beneath you,
The ship may be sinking.

Take a deep breath, and look all around you,
The people are out there.
They're swimming
There's life-boats
Others will pull you aboard if you'll let them

So ... just get your bag,
and throw your stuff in it,
And bring it ... Oh bring it to us!

~ Lorna J Green (2009)